Swweeeets, I love This Christmas. :D

Certain things you dont expect would turned out better :)





















XMAS EXCHANGED AT BEDOK POINT!:)

okay am a lousy bump to load moreeeee no thats not true cus its 12aaaaa-m in afew mins and i have work tml so i gotta chao and BE BACK AGAIN !

Just when I was about to load that picture of us , I realised I didnt sync to my lappy???? T___T

Anyway, my new work started. not THAT bad, people are moderately fine(For the time being) erms, but the scope is boring!. I dont know why did I even tk up this position... probably because is near (Changi South) Transport thru & Fro provided. Tanah merah----> Company -----> Tanahmerah. Save quite abit on transport liaos.. then they pay quite good also. Still, I cant stand being bored. I mean I really cant stand doing nothing. or maybe SOMETHING, a little things. I prefer bee dayssssss. I so hope my superior can faster "transfer" me to sales coordinator!!!!


Kays . cant wait for Friday!!! halfday + xmas date with MY JERROME !!! <3 <3 JUST US FINALLY(!) WOOHOO!

Happy 20th Birthday to our last girl, Shevone <3 *__* :D

Awesome alacate bday + christmas dinner over at Tunglok ~ :D very costly though T__T


























xoxo,

Love my bunch of lovlies :D

virgin visit to my place, steamboat.....and camwhoring.. and whats not? gossips and typical girl's thing:)




















































<3 <3 <3

and we're meeting again on Sunday WEEEEEEE !! :)

happy 70 months to you mr. JR and our jRhP!:)


always.be.my.baby~ <3*

Hey, my dearest went for this 3 Days 2 night SIT test in the jungle (again) and he's uncontactable (again)

sads`.

and he can only booked out on Saturday T__T





















Make it speedy please.

XOXO.

First Christmas Exchange of the year 2010! :)


















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Was with coolies ! ^^

Modesto serve very nice foods but expensive if its individually, even more expensive if its WITHOUT those special discounts !

it was a christmas exchanged thing as well as a birthday celebration for vynn!:)Love this bunch of people. :)

We exchanged the pressie, unintentionally, the guys exchanged among themselves and we too, I got Andrea's. :)














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The guys left early while Andrea and I did some shoppings :)

The SweetHeart is sick. :(















He booked out for the 4th time with 3 times falling sick. This time round was worse cus the following tomorrow he is off for field camp. Last 12am, his mom and I sent him over to CGH for a quick check up and visit.

and for the entire Sunday , he was feeling sleepish and.. feverish and whats not. those sick symtoms all came rushing in. sigh :( I did stayed by him for the entire day. by the bed..

I hops he get well this soon so that his out field wouldnt be a torturous thing...

*prays* no rain... cus it cant be making it worse.

Was watching some army life thingy video which is why I am still quite awake at this unearthly hour, 3.11am.-

It's been quite long eversince I;m this late though . . I was watching Personal Taste, and some online usuals.

this army video really makes my heart goes sour=( the tough training for the boys are really.. not easy. *sigh. they are indeed the son of singaporeans . . *much hugs*

Seeing their process make me understand how the more should I be more..concern or understanding and how should I be more related to Jerrome's army life.

He'll be heading for the torturous or maybe enjoyable I don't know field camp the coming week. I totally do not have any ideas how should I be handling but well, I hope I can be cus I;ll probably be busy preparing for my Thursday papers.

ah fuck, whatever it is, I;ll just be patience... I promise*

and am going to enjoy this weekends with him, no grumblings, no kpkb, just content and take what is given. . :)

now I am kinda regretful to work on friday from 330-10pm. sigh!:(<

Oh, my lovely picture:)


xoxo,
miss you ^^

Three hours with the old/new Friendship <3*























*Siglap starbucks, siglap playground & siglap park*

Many catch up-s being done. . hopefully we can meet for more sessions ! :)>

I know that over this weekend, I wasnt behaving at my fullest. I showed attitudes instead of showering love. I grumble instead of caring, I demand instead of understanding. I thought this entire army thing grew my patience and understanding level. I mean I cant deny it did to certain extent... but still, if I could have a even better of P & U level, that would be awesome I bet.

Sigh, I wish I could do even better.

He booked out once a week is actually... a very precious thing. I knew this thing last week, I applied the "theory" and understand how precious it was. But why hadnt I make full used of it this week.

Still, I stayed over Friday & saturday, I mean its good still, to have him on bed together... But right here am grumbling about the lack of my understanding level. I didnt even gave in to him (few hours) before he went into tekong, but an hour before he went in, I did, we did played peace. :)

I dont know why but this army, it seems like he grew and became more dependent on me. and it seems that he'd fallen in love all over again with me. That was sweet though but still, why am I not being understanding like I expected even myself?

:(

allow next week to be better please, I bet. :)

*im sorry, my baby*

anyway, over the weekends , we'd KFC on Friday dinner/Supper, and on Saturday was to Ikea and the day ended pretty early. and on Sunday, all the family went over to East Coast TungLok to have early lunch. 8-10 course lunch thingy. :)

*yums*

Jerrome and his *familiar* cousin Sheldon~















*my favourite picture now*

I.cant.literally.wait.seeing.you.at.Pasir.Ris.

I.cant.wait.to.just.hold.your.hand.

I.cant.wait.to.cuddle.in.the.huge.arms.of.yours.

I.cant.wait.to.sleep.beside.you.

I.cant.wait.to.see.that.youre.the.first.person.I.feel.when.I.wake.

Baby, there's so much things about you I cant really wait.

what.kinda.sunday.is.this.

everything did done or doing dont seems to be at its best. I feel lazy for most of the time (Today) and I dont know why.

It cant be because im jobless what. Could it be because I'm not out? no what, I dont really feel like going out. Could it be that exams are coming and I'm not mugging hard enough? Could it be that erm.. I feel.... (that my hair should undergo some treatments before I see the world?) Fuck it man, it must be that.

whatever it is lah, the weather today is killer shit balls. I should be going for a cooooool shower with scrubing & cutting my nails. and then I'll clean my room up and then I will write on the calender on whats up this week plus try to do my notes and finally, finish reading the Sunday Times! :)

I shalllllll mannnnn .


xoxo!

I kinda feel going to Gym(For me) on an individual point of view is a total useless shit balls thing. Cuxz the fats will only eventually start to burn when you're on the trackmill AFTER 20 mins which means the 20 mins you ran earlier on are "starting up" and thats very sad to say/ know Cuz I always only manage to run for that 20 mins . . omFG* i always dont have the habit of using my 2.5$ to the fullllest . Fuck it mannnnn , wana exercise the best thing WOULD BE WALKING AND CONTROL DIET. CONFIRM. OR maybe, cycling.

(Met up with Wanting for gymming at 11am...)

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Evening/ Night to Summer Breeze(Pasir Ris) damn.nice.lor.ok.lah. nice foods, cheap alcohols and boys to see , WAHAHA. (JK)




















*yums*

i
bring
jerrome
here
next
time
!
:)


After that we kinda got lost, I mean, we dont really have any ideas where should we go.. so, yadayada, we went to her house slack instead! Watch Jielun's world tour's concert on her AVA screeen! :)

chilled slack and just talk about anything . .

* actually its quite gd like this then having to go squeeeeezy places * Life is too hectic so why make it worse even on a weekend? * :) * once in awhile can lah though * hahaha * :)> *

I probably is missing my Boy quite much.

I left my job.

I am happy, Happier, relieve, relieve-r. :)


I can say I tendered, I also can say you terminated me.

I dont have much feelings for this job. Cuz right from the begining i didnt put in too mcuh efforts for the people. for the colleague to be specified.. and when I left, no one really cared. actually I do not too. but still, I appreacite liaogas saying he'll miss me, and aaron asking if im alright. I can hardly catch your expression, your thoughts and whats not, still, I appreciate certain things we've shared, and gladys for calling me . .

:)

actually at times i do wish im a tai tai, doing nthg but have endless money, do nails everytime, dressed up, go town facial everyday, enjoy hitea, whatever. i havnt had a taitai life. just when??

Jerrome's first book out.:) 16.11.2010* our 69th Months*-

Grats my baby, you made it passed the initial period! You're doing great. Please hang it there. :)>

seeing him in his uni, actually is a very proud thing. . all the grumblings and nots, misses or what, you just wished you could melt all out into his arms. This bad, the misses were this massive. .


















(Handsome huh!)

Of course, we did spent our night in quality. . no quarrels, no shoutings, no rudes, just updates, loves, hugs&kisses. .

This army, made me feel more love. like as though he was falling back in love. (you know those initial love birds....) yes, he gave me this feeling. it was this.... assuring.

This army, made me grow to become more understanding, patience, and whats not, tolerate.

This army, made me not waste any of his time off cuz i just cant afford to. I cant possibly wait 7 days, or maybe 5, (Feeling lousy).

This army, made me go according to him. .


Even if its 7am in the morning, i know his a very goodboy who wana (also) spend time with his mom and me, and that he cant afford his mum to go marketing alone, he asked if i could accompany him together with his family at 7 am.

How can i say no, if i did, I would have go against this little filial boy, isnt it... and of course i did wake up.:)>


xoxo,

9 days.

Jie yong yao hui jia le.!!!:D Yay! <3<3<3

I miss wo de xiao bAo~:)

Party with my old fame. :) <3*


Being with her gave me a very familiar feelings.

rude, vulgar, sweet, kaopeh, shout. all in one.- my winwin sista.*

I don't know how to literally expressed my happiness on being able to touch my own reddy lappy right now!:D I feel so safe and just familiar with all the settings, keypads, and whats not. I so......love my laptop. yay*!!!!

Before I kick start the completion of my project assignment, lemme just type something out here. Perhaps I needed it, very badly.

To work: I didnt know eversince how long ago my energy for this job had depleted unknowingly. I dont really feel it coming, but my dear boss reminded me. and and that actually made me wondered did I really.... lost the "interest" momentum or whatever you called it.

Everyone talks about figures. If you are not able to produce the sales figures, who really cares where you're coming from. Cuz no one just do. I dont see why should I be running after something which are eventually not intending to imprint my foot steps. I dont see why am I not being rewarded accordingly even i worked extra harder. I dont see and understand the screwed up commission scheme?

I cant believe that this sales job brings me no where. Even if I fucking hell close big orders I dont get a shit, I dont get the basic commission pay out. Why? Because I didnt Hit target. Fuck tard, no? yes.

Having to be in different kinda sales industry short or longer term, this is the first ever I got calls over the weekends and still stay up after 6pm, with no commission. Fuck? yes.

Tell me what should I do? If I were to leave right now, it'll most probably freak the colleagues out there. like *bo tai bo ji* suddenly leave. haiz, Fuck THis ShIT.

To Jerrome: massive misses* Thats all I can say. having just to survive with the virgin call of the night and living with the only Text at 530am, actually is quite tideous for me. what happens in between? *mAssive.misses* siGhx.

but thats the place he eventually grow....... *jIayou. he must be missing home fucking badly. 5 days baby, its coming. hang it there, you;re doing good.

and To SChoOl: I gona start mugging my assignment before its TOO late cuz its dued tml. and to school again, they are my final modules and to my school again, my examination is coming in 3 weeks time. Fuck it? yes, no?

I will work hard.

my dearest boyfriend is home sick! *Wish I could do something, sigh!

I miss you:'(

I didnt really expect myself to go over his place a night before he got shipped in, cuz our initial plans is to go Macs' after my make up lesson. But he ask me to go over saying he wana hug me to bed.sweet only, but it was indeed.

nobody really likes seperation, we could be this long and fight or quarrel almost very often, but still when it narrows down to saying goodbyes, actually it sucks.


Before we grow older and have other forms of needs and wants, I just wana be reminded (again) that Jerrome is the boy or man to be, whom I am and is still madly in love with.

xoxo,

Good luck my Jerrome.

Post Army symdrome-

all the poor girlfriends out there suffer along with their botak boyfriends.. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~ that's so....*&^%$#@! okay actually (its hitting nearer and fucking near, 2 damn it days O.O) :<( I hope everything would just be ALL fine. Im not sending him off to Tekong cuz you know I'll definitely cry like a baby. and he do not want to cry toO? haha. so i just have to guai guai go work lor.:(<

But this enlistment, I dont feel so isolated. Cuz i've many boy-friends who is also enlisting in between that week(8th-12th) so I guess Jerrome wont feel so lonely too? and I bet im not the only GirlFriend who is going to suffer. >.<

I spent my long weekends over at Jerrome's place for consecutively 3 days. we didnt do alot alot or go alot of places but it was overall okay. I thought it sucked but actually its okay la, I guess the 2 weeks gona fly by. *prays. I've a list of 'To-Do-s' and hope to really do it.

:

Do I still have time to buy him a SomethinG? *Wonders.

You know I'll miss you when you got shipped into Tekong. TakeGoodCare- my circle head.*<3*

(Just when I wanted to finally type something, my dear boss appeared from whereever he is)

I didnt bring my laptop back for my project assignment. That means for the next few days or maybe a week, I gona be seen busy mugging like a bitch. :(< sad shit.

Jerrome will be enlisting in about 4 days(in exact) I dont know how should I be feeling..... I guess I am... alright now just that I know still, it wont be easy for me to handle when it really strike. Cuz I'm quite involved in him though we dont meet every single day but still, its been 5 years many months, we were really close I should say. So having to leave me for a few weeks actually to me hurts but I guess ultimately it is a very good thing cuz he finally gona become a man. :)

I guess I gona be busy burying myself with whats not, projects, studying for exams, and.... what, meeting up with friends lor!:)> hahaha.

Anyway we went zoo again, the last visit was 2 years ago.. this time round we went with Sheldon & his Girlfriend, after that we'd sakura.. shall load soOoOoOoN.

back to work liao, goodbye!:D

Because a Friendship that clicks well with each and everyone I love in gradual, it is a and the most beautiful I could ever asked for. Even if the Friendship is less than a year old

















































































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I met the girl above, andrea AKA Qiqi as early as 9am for our $12/hour work that saturday. it was OK lah. home and dressing up again, would already be 6pm, rushed and met the guys around 7pm for our dinner at Jolly Frog. A pretty nice resturant though.... :>)

Afterwhich we were really kinda wonder where the hell should we be hanging out and we.... ended at powerhouse(again) for the XXXXX times, cuz my Friend there LOVE powerhouseeeeeee.

yadayada, alcohols and music, I probably wasnt in the really mooooood to get very "high" and kaopehzzzz. Flaming thing didnt kill me, AT ALL. :D haha.

-)

Had Fun(S)

love
they
all
maxico.

hopefully the Friendship can always be seen running... and running.

My parents love to me is unconditioned.

Just like how mine it is to theirs. maybe a little lesser than theirs, but I am improving. day by day, I am improving. Improving to be their better girl, improving to shower them with more love. Improving... to hopefully give them a better life.

I dont know how contented are them with each other, or maybe their lives now, or maybe their financial not-s related, their businesses, their every single thing. but I hope my brother and I, could be their greatest gift. we may not be gifted in any ways, professional in any ways, genius in any ways, I know still, we are their most precious and probably still will be their proud-est achievements. haix, I love them, really, unconditionally, I really fucking do.

(I know I am always emotional *&^%$#@!)

Probably because Jerrome is not with me tonight, tomorrow's and the day after and after. His family went over malaysia to witness (again) her cousin's marriage.. To think of it, it is really a pretty short thing. Before it came by, I was thinking, "aye damn it, few days only what, furthermore it is over the weekends" but when it really came hitting, I just fucking think that few days IS tolerable, NOT.
:(

I cant forcast myself seeing him over tekong, shipping in to that ulu island. That would probably be the MOST torturous periods, Ever:( *uPseTs*

Miss you baby,

come back soon and safely please.

xoxo.

I feel that my Life is in a mess. It seems that many things havent been done. I cant seems to bring my Life back onto track. Everything to me seems so bleak. I can't forecast where am heading to. I need a Life. a Life which I was quite positive about. a Life which I never felt so isolated. a Life which I wanted, a Life which I pictured.

But where'd all these "Life" gone to? or rather where'd I lost it all to? Sometimes it just get too mundane, too drained, too lazy, to unmotivated, to less bothered. I hate to feel lazy, How can I always not get drained by the laziness and how do we often feel LESS lazy? Back then, (I dont remember how back was then) I could kill the laziness, I see it coming I screwed it right before it hit me hard. Back then (again) I could conquered it. Without fail, I always do.

So what had happened to me, or rather my "ability" to conquer the laziness and all the motivating Lifes, Lives? I shouldn't be feeling Life's a bitch cuz I dont believe it. Life to me is beautiful. But..... sometimes you just have to experience it and then.. conclude that Life sucks. Vice versa, to taste the sweetness of Life before you conclude again that Life IS indeed beautiful.

Many factors, financially, personally, work, studies, family, relationships and friends. Every single mentioned bring me back to Life. And if one happened to occur or perform bad, that's it. My Life will be in a messed up situation and again, I have to get it back on track so as to move towards My Life.

Sometimes I wonder why am I so easily fucked by things around me. How can I feel less easily interrupted and just move on with what I'm doing and just fuck them all it. Sometimes I could see me being strong enough to withstand it all but sometimes again, I feel all so shitty, being conquered by them again and again.

I always believe in the power of mind. My mind say YES means YES. I always believe the subconsiousness of our ability to outcast our external. but how do we apply it back ON REALITY? you read it and you find it easy. but when you try applying it, there it goes again, fucking your life. Difficult.

But right now I am really going to get my Life back on MY track. I should be doing it alone, with the ability of my subconsiousness and the power of MY MIND. Do you think I can? Yes I believe I should be able.

5 Years 8 Months *

Crazy shit indeed, yes, we've come THIS far.


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Talking about 10.10.10 last week, it was an evening witnessing the young couple. Honestly to me, going into a marriage is a very scary thing. Cuz you never know how long would the love for both lasts. A marriage is indeed a night only which is supposed to last a life time but how often are beautiful marriage lasting a longer time?... After being married for a decade or so, being with each other would become a routine. and thats not what I ever want. I dont want a beautiful Love to become a routine.

*If knowing that he dont love you like you thought he is, and if knowing that you will be the one who might have to put in the most efforts to make it worked, would you still, would you still marry him?*









*happily marriage to you bothxz.*